LeAnne died St. Patricks Day morning. She was 45. She gave her friends and family a great gift. We were all given a chance to say good bye. She had a catered gathering a few weeks before her death. She invited anyone to please come and see her at her home. And people came. I saw her the friday before her death and was able to tell her I love her. I partied at her parties with her - she was asleep during some of the partying but that was okay. She died with grace. I will miss her.

It has been raining and freezing all day long. I called in to work because I didn't want to drive on an ice rink. So I cleaned. I am having the girls over this week. I don't know what we are going to snack on but it is clean. I can't wait until spring! I have cabin fever so bad!.
Dana's new glasses rock!!

Well we had a surprise birthday party for Marie Saturday. It was for LeAnne too. It was fun. LeAnne was very weak but much better than earlier in the week. She is doing radiation on her brain and they are giving her a lot of drugs. They make her weak and sick.

Yesterday I got a text from LeAnne. Her colon cancer has now metasticised into her brain. All I could do is to tell her I love her. She doesn't have long and it is so sad. I feel the need to do something about this terrible disease. I am looking into a cancer walk. I don't want to lose anyone else. My father died of it and my sister is cured after the operation she just had. But you never know. Testing is so important.

Fear. It is what keeps a person from doing. But what is there to be afraid of? Not a thing.

Pride - I want my kids and family to be proud of me. I need to be proud of myself. I am. But I can do so much more. I like the feeling of accomplishment and that makes me proud of myself

I accessed the secret in my mind and it worked. I said I would see Shawn today - and lo and behold I got out of work early and saw her at the grocery store. Wow. I need to set my sights higher but it sure was nice to see and talk to her.